Caffeinated Much


Everyday watching the steam rising from the same cup, the same swirl of white against the dark liquid starring right back like the thousand times before. It’s a trance more like a choice. Every day and morning building this wall of "SAME" brick by brick, just to keep the chaos and discomfort on the other side. People call it a habit, but it’s a fortress of self preservation where it’s the only place the floor doesn’t drop out betraying your feet.

Is it delusion? Maybe, but there’s a weird comfort in knowing exactly how the day will disappoint anyway. It’s better than the "unknown" like a ghost foolishly fooling around you yet giving up the thrill of it for the sake of the silence. 

Trading the fire for the lukewarm safety of a scheduled same existence. 

In hindsight, thinking this is the outcome of forgetting how to feel, yet maybe feeling too  much and choosing this routine only sedates the overwhelming feel of it, is it the logic speaking or the espresso shot taking the lead to bring tragic drama to this boring morning, we may never know. 

But either ways, here reaching for the same cup, taking a sip, adjusting the bag to step out into the same hallway, toward the same doors, ready to do it all again. Because as dull as it is you feel belonging in a world that’s constantly shaking, for the moment it is enough, taking stillness even if it’s suffocating.

… what a life.

soundtrack Slightly Hangover ( Blues Delight) : https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=zq7hltwb_yc&si=tC9YTFqNvDAFxgx5 

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